Orion In The Abyss

I never thought i would ever create a blog in my entire life. It was easier than expected but i know there are loads of functions i have yet to try out. Anyway i better stop blabbering on about that. My orientation at TP is about to start. I can't say i am nervous, nor am i excited. Actually i bloody worried. I have so many worry questions;Will I act strangely? What if no one likes me? What if i offend someone? What if i breakdown? Randal had soooo much fun with his new friends on the first day of orientation at NYP. Heard Brandon had the same though they are in different classes. Still,as long as he lives, i am going to have to keep that watchful eye of mine on him...

My classmates-to-be first impression is gonna matter the most. I don't want them to treat me the same way my classmates did in FTP. I always felt neglected. No one really gives a bloody damn about what i do. Maybe it's because i am always so pessimistic that no one dares to talk to me. But i will never know... ...this will remain a mystery in my heart even after i grow up. Jealousy has left my mind scarred beyond recognition from sec 3-4 , ESPECIALLY 4E1... Ahh never mind. Ignorance is bliss they say. Then i rather they stay this way than wonder what they have done to me.

Hmph, i still remember what happened last night. I gave Randal a call and intently listened to every word he had to say. Well, i was hoping to get advice from someone who had experienced something beforehand but, the only thing i remember was Randal ranting on and on about this glamorous looking girl from FSN that got all the boys turning their necks. (i must go there and see her for myself =P) Talked to Daniel online and he was pretty pissed because i was taking sure a long time to reply to him LOL. Sorry Daniel,i was helping Randal with some orientation matters. Hung up the phone to do my night exercises and for Randal to get sufficient rest before his 2nd day at orientation. This was when that stupid brother of mine barged into my room TWICE to ask my questions on logarithms and surds. Luckily i was done with my exercises. I hate to think how hard it would be just to answer him while doing 100 sit ups =D

Edit:Randal is not one of those "classmates" as stated in paragraph.